you don't know how bad it can get. that there can be that point where sadness isn't just sadness anymore. it's constant pain somewhere inside you. and you don't even know where. and it's like something's stolen away all your hope and left you feeling completely empty. all the time. it's that stage where even jokes turn into criticism, friends turn into strangers, and you take any little thing as an excuse for you to cry. when nights stretch out and merge into days because you can never sleep anymore. when every single thing about yourself - everything you do, or say, just makes you more and more annoyed at being who you are. and you start to feel like you're trapped in a state of insanity. like you're going crazy. and you cant even do anything about it. you're just stuck. helplessly. but the worst is when people make a joke out of you feeling that way and laugh about it and use it against you. to make you feel even more **** about yourself. or when they just pretend that it's not even there, like you're perfectly fine and none of those feelings exist. can you even imagine? to you, sadness is just sadness. a temporary emotion. you don't know. i didn't know either.